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Emma North's avatar

Yes, relate so much to this. I’m 48, my BMI is 22.2 (I weighed myself this morning of course). I hope my 3 boys don’t pick up on my restrictive / disordered eating but they probably do which makes me a bit sad.

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Holly Bell's avatar

I think we're very much victims of our teenage years. How could we have grown up in such toxic times and NOT be f*cked up over food?

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Paul Douglas's avatar

Thanks for sharing. As a fat bloke (previously morbidly obese, now obese) I have no insight into being thin or a woman, so however tongue in cheek this is, thank you.

Also, 3 stone is 3 stone. That’s a really good effort.

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Holly Bell's avatar

Thanks Paul. Appreciated. Still on the hamster wheel.

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Clover Stroud's avatar

I really appreciate the honest in this

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Holly Bell's avatar

Thanks Clover. Still going. Due to update on it all soon.

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Alexis Ko's avatar

TW

Yes to all of this as well

Sadly, when I was very thin (also had anorexia), I couldn't see I was thin. And couldn't even get to gloat or enjoy it a little. Now, well, technically I'm "overweight" (BMI) but I don't think I'm humungous and yet the obsessive eating thoughts still sometimes haunt me. Do you think they ever go away?

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Holly Bell's avatar

Sorry for the late reply. I'm not sure you ever fully recover tbh. I swing between binging and restricting. I am absolutely committed to being sensible this time though. Once I'm safely into a regular BMI I am going to monitor myself and commit to not going back to my previous size.

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Lynn A's avatar

Oh gawd, yes. To all of this!

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